Where do I begin? It’s been a few weeks. I got to admit the last few weeks have not been easy, not in the slightest. But when life throws some decisions and challenges at us, it is how we react and come out the other side that define us
That said, am I in a good place following said few weeks? I don’t know if I’m honest. I’m excited about what the future will bring, but I’m also scared so much because I am miles out of my comfort zone.
Now, this is a weight loss blog. People don’t come here to read about how to keep it together in your head. I’m not here for that. What I am here for is to explain there can easily be a direct correlation between one’s state of mind and achieving a steadfast weight loss each week.
50 miles still feels like a very long way on the bike. Way longer than I know I can manage at the moment. But that is slowly changing. Not only statistically, but I can feel the change.
I’m still only managing to get out cycling a couple of times a week. I’m pushing to make it 3 times a week, but recently it has been twice a week. Still, this last week I covered a respectable 33 miles. 12.8 miles (average 12.4mph) on Thursday evening and 20.4 miles (average 12.5mph) on Saturday.
Distance-wise, Thursday ride wasn’t anything special, I’ve covered that sort of distance a few times, but Saturday was special. Saturday marked the first time I’ve cycled past 20 miles in a single ride.
I have good news for a change. I say for a change, it’s been a while since I raved about losing weight. You have to go back to April 18th when I last blogged about losing weight. Yeah, that’s how bad I’ve been sucking at this weight loss gig.
But I say I have good news. This week I didn’t gain. Don’t get me wrong, I haven’t lost every gained in recent weeks. But I have to look back to March when I was last at Slimming World to get something like I got this week.
I have no tricks to a good week, other than being good. My #Challenge50 is approaching closer and closer each day and if I’m honest, I’m kind of excited and scared about the prospect of riding such a distance – unaided.
8-weeks ago I took the plunge to try something new. Something to try and spur my weight loss into the right direction. I signed up for a 6-month membership plan and I’m now 2-months into said plan. But what do I have to show for it?
I’ve not really kept in my mind what I weighed when I started this plan. It’s not something I particularly wanted floating around adding pressure to me mentally. That, I don’t think has worked. Before I always remembered what my weight was previously. Yes trying to lose a set target added unneeded pressure to me, but I knew where I was on my journey.
I’ve just looked back at the WW app and my weight journey in particular. To say I’m disappointed is an understatement. Yes, I’ve just about lost the holiday weight for our trip to Gran Canaria. But overall I am 2.5 lbs heavier than when I started the plan.
I hate time. Time is not a friend. There is never enough time to do everything. But time is something I need to make. It’s also time to aim for something different.
For year I have been aiming to get myself down to a reasonable weight. For years I have miserably sucked at achieving said aim. Time and time again I tell myself “this time is different, this time I will do it”. I have a good few months, then BOOM! Back to square one again.
Back in my post “It’s Been A While…” I said that I had joined Weight Watchers after leaving Slimming World. Although I’ve not lost a stone that I would expect within the first few weeks with Slimming World, I am enjoying it.
For the most part of 2019, I’ve written a weekly “Time to Reflect” post which looks back on my week. This has been my way of posting about my loss for said week. I’m changing things up a bit now though…
I’m starting a new post feature called “My Weight Loss Notes”. I will still writing the Time to Reflect posts too, but they will be more about how I’m feeling and dealing with the journey of losing weight, where as the Weight Loss Notes will be me talking about my actual weight loss so far. It will be where I can put down what I did during the week, how I’m changing physically (if at all) etc.
It’s basically another post for me to blog about. Writing to this blog has kept me on track when previously I would have thrown in the towel. It’s given me a place to put down my struggles and my achievements. Anything new I can bring will keep me motivated to do more.
Last week wasn’t great when I got weighed, but it was expected after the holiday and everything. The gain wasn’t as bad as it could have been, but it was a gain. You can read about last week in my post Holidays and Weight Loss.
This week though I needed to be back on it 100%. Deep down I wanted to aim for that 6lbs gain from last week to be gone. But I can’t set myself mini targets each week. When I do, I don’t do well. It’s like I put too much pressure on myself to get that mini target. I obviously don’t deal with that sort of self-pressure very well.
So this week I elected to not give Annette (our lovely Slimming World consultant) a mini target for the week, again. I just wanted to have a crack at losing what I could without the pressure of aiming for something.