I am everything you need to keep you smiling, but I am also the nightmare that stops you in your track. I make you feel so good about yourself, but I can also make you feel so bad about yourself you just want the ground to swallow you whole.
On you’re good days I am willing you along. I sometimes make you feel invincible like you can conquer anything. Going out with friends? Not a problem when I have you in good spirits. Do you think you’re doing it alone? No, you’re not, when we’re on a good day I am right there by your side.
I can make you feel energised and make you want to take on a marathon. I can help you move around more and more and get you more involved in physical activities.
I can make you feel good and strong mentally. It’s almost like I’ve given you a new lease of life. Have a target in mind? With me, you will get there.
But on the other hand, I can make you miserable. I can make you feel anxious or even depressed. I can even make loneliness creep in and seclude you from what you love.
When I’m at my worst, you will start to make excuses for not going out with friends, make excuses for why you’re eating that awful takeaway. You may even end up in such a rut you feel you can’t get out of it.
Time will go on and things won’t improve, not unless you can mentally beat me. Beat me so hard that you are on top again. Only when you are on top can we work together and get you what you want. Only then can you start to enjoy life again, start to enjoy days/evening out and enjoy the company of friends and/or family.
If you can beat me at my lowest, you can keep me at my best.
Who am I?
I am Weight Loss.
I am not easy to get along with, especially if you’ve been trying for so long. But believe me, you can get to where you want if you are mentally tough enough.
Weight loss is a journey of massive proportions. It can be a great and rewarding feeling when you have done well. It can also be your worst nightmare when you haven’t done well.
I set my mind back to Monday night last week. I hadn’t done anything special diet-wise, I just stuck to what I knew what free or low in syns on Slimming World. I wasn’t overly optimistic for the weigh-in, but I wasn’t expecting anything to swing the other way either.
I was buzzing after I got weighed that night. The scales showed I had lost 3.5lbs that week. I’ve not had a loss like that for a while now it felt good to be heading in the right direction once again. Not only had I had a decent win on the scales, but I was also awarded the Slimmer of the Week award. Something I haven’t been awarded for a long, long time. That felt even better.
50 miles still feels like a very long way on the bike. Way longer than I know I can manage at the moment. But that is slowly changing. Not only statistically, but I can feel the change.
I’m still only managing to get out cycling a couple of times a week. I’m pushing to make it 3 times a week, but recently it has been twice a week. Still, this last week I covered a respectable 33 miles. 12.8 miles (average 12.4mph) on Thursday evening and 20.4 miles (average 12.5mph) on Saturday.
Distance-wise, Thursday ride wasn’t anything special, I’ve covered that sort of distance a few times, but Saturday was special. Saturday marked the first time I’ve cycled past 20 miles in a single ride.
I have good news for a change. I say for a change, it’s been a while since I raved about losing weight. You have to go back to April 18th when I last blogged about losing weight. Yeah, that’s how bad I’ve been sucking at this weight loss gig.
But I say I have good news. This week I didn’t gain. Don’t get me wrong, I haven’t lost every gained in recent weeks. But I have to look back to March when I was last at Slimming World to get something like I got this week.
I have no tricks to a good week, other than being good. My #Challenge50 is approaching closer and closer each day and if I’m honest, I’m kind of excited and scared about the prospect of riding such a distance – unaided.
I’m nearly two weeks into Challenge 50 now. Have I lost weight – no, have I covered some decent miles on the bike – not as much as I would have liked.
The weight thing has been a problem in recent weeks. My previous post, 1 Step Forward, 2 Steps Backwards, I explained how I was actually heavier at that point than I was when I started the change to WW. I have a membership with WW until September and there is no way of cancelling it early, though they have given me a free month due to my struggles.
I have enjoyed cooking again though. Every now and then I go through a period of wanting to cook, instead of just letting the wife sort dinner. One of the nicest meals I’ve cooked lately I had to blog about, the Chilli & Paprika Chicken Kebab with Pesto Pasta was just awesome! So much flavour in one dish and very filling. The picture of this even got a fair few likes on Instagram too.
I hate time. Time is not a friend. There is never enough time to do everything. But time is something I need to make. It’s also time to aim for something different.
For year I have been aiming to get myself down to a reasonable weight. For years I have miserably sucked at achieving said aim. Time and time again I tell myself “this time is different, this time I will do it”. I have a good few months, then BOOM! Back to square one again.
Back in my post “It’s Been A While…” I said that I had joined Weight Watchers after leaving Slimming World. Although I’ve not lost a stone that I would expect within the first few weeks with Slimming World, I am enjoying it.
Do you know what HbA1c levels are? I imagine some people who read my ramblings do. For those who don’t, here’s a quick explanation for you;
HbA1c is what’s known as glycated haemoglobin. This is something that’s made when the glucose (sugar) in your body sticks to your red blood cells. Your body can’t use the sugar properly, so more of it sticks to your blood cells and builds up in your blood. Red blood cells are active for around 2-3 months, which is why the reading is taken quarterly.