Who Am I?

I am everything you need to keep you smiling, but I am also the nightmare that stops you in your track. I make you feel so good about yourself, but I can also make you feel so bad about yourself you just want the ground to swallow you whole.

On you’re good days I am willing you along. I sometimes make you feel invincible like you can conquer anything. Going out with friends? Not a problem when I have you in good spirits. Do you think you’re doing it alone? No, you’re not, when we’re on a good day I am right there by your side.

I can make you feel energised and make you want to take on a marathon. I can help you move around more and more and get you more involved in physical activities.

I can make you feel good and strong mentally. It’s almost like I’ve given you a new lease of life. Have a target in mind? With me, you will get there.

But on the other hand, I can make you miserable. I can make you feel anxious or even depressed. I can even make loneliness creep in and seclude you from what you love.

When I’m at my worst, you will start to make excuses for not going out with friends, make excuses for why you’re eating that awful takeaway. You may even end up in such a rut you feel you can’t get out of it.

Time will go on and things won’t improve, not unless you can mentally beat me. Beat me so hard that you are on top again. Only when you are on top can we work together and get you what you want. Only then can you start to enjoy life again, start to enjoy days/evening out and enjoy the company of friends and/or family.

If you can beat me at my lowest, you can keep me at my best.

Who am I?

I am Weight Loss.

I am not easy to get along with, especially if you’ve been trying for so long. But believe me, you can get to where you want if you are mentally tough enough.

Missed A Group And Paid The Price

It’s not easy trying to change something about yourself.  Especially when you’re trying to change years of bad habits and bad food.  It’s even harder if you put in place a support network of people and you miss a week at group.  This is what I did last week.  I wasn’t feeling up to going so I didn’t, the result was two bad weeks instead of one.

Food addiction is an actual thing and I suffer from it – big time.  I can go a few weeks being on plan with Slimming World and get some cracking losses each week, but then the cravings start.  This is the food addiction kicking in.  This started kicking in again last week.  What did I do about it? Nothing, abso-freaking-lutely nothing.

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Losing My Marbles And My Keys

Everyone loses their marbles every now and then.  Sometimes you walk into a room a forget why.  Sometimes you ask someone a question you asked them a couple of minutes prior.  Sometimes you will lose your keys when in town but then really lose everything.

A long story short, I’ve had to start wearing glasses for Computer Work, Reading, TV Time and Driving – basically, anything that requires me to focus on something.  I haven’t adapted well, I hate wearing them – but I’d rather wear them than get the headaches that follow when I don’t.

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