I skipped Wednesday weight night this week. Two reasons lead me to get weighed yesterday morning instead, 1) it was my work Xmas lunch on Wednesday (I am not getting weighed after a 3-course meal) and 2) I wasn’t well Wednesday evening.
I was good this week where possible. Most meals were on plan this week with just a small number of snacky treats in between. I had to use some self-control this week but I just hoped leading up to Saturday that it would help and I’d have another loss, the last one before Christmas.
I’ve never really known what anxiety really was until recent times. It can be a real bitch too. When talking about anxiety in general, you will hear things like feeling on edge about something, feeling of restlessness in situations you don’t like and feeling irritable.
Tonight Matthew, I’m going to be… all of the above.
Let me quickly set the scene. Tonight was Christmas Fair night at my daughters’ school. The first Christmas fair of what would be many as she spends the first 6 years or so of her schooling life there. School is a busy enough place when all the kids are there learning. Now factor in all those kids being there with their parents and grandparents. Imagine just how many people are now crammed into the school.
Everyone loses their marbles every now and then. Sometimes you walk into a room a forget why. Sometimes you ask someone a question you asked them a couple of minutes prior. Sometimes you will lose your keys when in town but then really lose everything.
A long story short, I’ve had to start wearing glasses for Computer Work, Reading, TV Time and Driving – basically, anything that requires me to focus on something. I haven’t adapted well, I hate wearing them – but I’d rather wear them than get the headaches that follow when I don’t.
There is one thing I have found this last week really useful and that is the bike. Having the bike set up in my ‘Dad Cave’ has meant that when I’ve been feeling angry, frustrated or emotional for whatever reason has saved me. I still need to get on top of my emotions and mental state, but the bike has been a lifesaver recently.